I will married when...

Another same questions whenever my Mom called me

"How is it? Have you had a boyfriend? Get one, so you'll marry next year. And I'll have a grand daughter/son when I retired."

Alamaak.. (OMG)

My Mom have had me KPI target for this year : have a boyfriend who will ask me to marry next year. Not only that, there's an colleague in office who keep asking "when you'll get married". Which make it sounds like "not married is a crime".

Here's my point.
Why should I marry if it's ended in a divorce?
Why should I marry if it's make me feel suffer?

(Note : feel suffer, not : suffer , which is mean the suffer came from your mind)

I will married, when ..

• My partner is able to be my whole life partner. I'm able to accept him, and so he does. Oh, and also both our parents too.
• I'm prepared in all aspects. Because married means more responsibility. Like adding new user roles in your user ID. It grant you more accesses but more works will come to you.

Being married is not the only choice nor the only happy ending in my life. Being married is a new adventure, new story of the choice that I take (if I choose to be married). I won't marry if it's only to get a "Good Child" label from my society.

I will married when it's time for me to marry. Whether in this life, or my other life (s).
Toh, kalau jodoh ga bakal ke mana.

Pusing Di Pagi Hari

err, pagi ini gw cukup pusing..

bukan karena penyakit. tapi karena terlalu banyak memproses informasi.

kalo dilihat pada akhir taon lalu, gw mayan rajin bikin bekal sendiri. daaan, lama kelamaan gw bosen sendiri. sekitar desember, gw nyobain mayo diet.. which is, menurut gw.. ga cucok buat gw.

why? itu benar2 menguras tenaga, gw ga bisa konsentrasi kerja. pala pucing!! turun banyak? secara berat badan ga terlalu, ukuran mengecil sih iya. recommended KALAU u want a fast result.

akhir kata, gw mulai katering makanan rumah yg no MSG. sembari research diet apa sih yg oke? well, bukan masalah berat badan. menilik history kesehatan keluarga, gw agak was was juga.

ada beberapa pola makan (bukan buat ngurus yah) yang gw mulai kenal. food combining, clean eating dan raw food.

dan sekarang gw mengalami dilemma sendiri. harus mulai dari mana? gw ga berani mulai, karena pernah ngalami asal diet malah bikin wajah kusam dan rambut rontok.